Let me give you a little background on my sis, Tancie (more commonly know as Toots by myself). She is more of a nomad than myself, and is never in the place I expect her to be. I see her about once a year, which is a little unnerving because we were best friends our entire lives, and that's hard to let go of. She chases after anyone who will call her beautiful, but can't seem to hang on to relationships (although she has been "engaged" about 50 times). She's 19. AND SHE SUCKS. I am so incredibly angry with her right now. The thing about our relationship is that she is in control, and she likes it. I never have any idea where she is or how to contact her, so it's up to her fancy to decide when we communicate. It's simply not fair, and I don't want to put up with it anymore. She knows I love her way too much to just completely cut her out of my life, so she treats me unfairly without remorse. Plus, she turns it around on me and says I'm condescending and "holier-than-thou". I can't help it if she's an idiot and I'm not. We all have choices.

She just sent me an email calling me a "white trash asshole". Despite the amusing aspect of this statement, I was hurt. Not because of the statement, mind you, but because she knows she has the power to hurt my feelings and she uses it. (not too many people have that power over me, as it should be) I am just so sick of games it makes me sick to my stomach.

I want to scream at the world, "WHY CAN'T YOU BE REAL SO I CAN TOO, BECAUSE THIS IS NOT FUN FOR ME ANYMORE!!!!!"

Family is the worst. If you have one of those Seventh Heaven families, good for you. But this article is for people who understand my point of view. Sometimes I think, "They shouldn't have the right to call themselves my relative, they did nothing for that kind of privilege." Cocky, maybe, but honest. I know I'm not perfect and I piss them off also, but why can't I choose my own family?

I want a divorce, and I know I'm wrong in this, so no cheesy advice. I read a recent article in a magazine about that fact that when we enable a person to step outside of God's will (i.e. Myself letting Tancie be cruel and unfair), that we are sinning just as badly as they are. I tend to agree. I know God puts us with certain families for reasons beyond our comprehension, and that maybe I WILL understand it someday, but for now, I want to gripe.

Anyone with a family that sucks, comment please.

Trinitie