I'm only passing through...
To My Future Love
Published on February 16, 2006 By new-age nomad In Dating

I need your hands to be calloused and your knees to be bruised.  I need to know that tears have marked your face and pain has smudged the rouge of your heart. 

 

I need to know that you’ve seen hell, that you’ve lived there, and that you fought to get out.  I need to know that you do not covet comfort, stability, or permanence.  You need to hold the awareness in your soul that the deepest beauty only acquaints itself with wreckage and rubble.

 

Someone before me needs to have held your heart with both hands and slowly dug their nails into it while you watched.  I need you to hold in your line of vision the dripping blood sliding down her fingers and onto the floor.  I need you to be reluctant in giving up this scarred organ again.

 

I hope that you have seen death, that you have seen addiction, that you have seen deterioration, and that you have known lost love.  I want you to tell me about all the mistakes you’ve made, consciously or otherwise, and I want to share in the magic that is imperfection. 

 

I want most of your life lessons to have been learned through error, because where’s the story with the absence of conflict?  Change needs to have broken you and caught you off guard, thus only making you appreciate it’s splendor that much more. 

 

I need you to be this person, not because I want to fix you, but because the ocean will never understand the pond.

 

Trinitie   


Comments (Page 1)
on Feb 16, 2006
Very, very good. I am as impressed as I am envious. Excellent, excellent writing here. Insightful if there ever was one...
on Feb 16, 2006
the ocean will never understand the pond.


For one, love is a decision. For the other, it can't be helped. To decide to love is one of the most incredible acts of letting go.

Very nice Trinitie.
on Feb 16, 2006
very well done trin... it would make a great song!
Charissa
on Feb 16, 2006
trin, i'm speechless. reading this, i feel like someone rewound me back to the woman i was to become when i met my husband. this is truly beautiful and thankyou for sharing it.

mig xxx
on Feb 16, 2006
My b/f told me to take a look at this article...he says it impressed and made him envious at the same time... I can see why.

Achingly beautiful is how I would describe it.
on Feb 16, 2006

i'm back, trin. i just had to read this again. i was thinking ... i have a friend who i think would really enjoy your work, and i was wondering if you'd mind if i sort of 'introduced' him to your blog somehow ?. let me know. thanks .

mig xxx

on Feb 17, 2006
I am as impressed as I am envious.


Powerful writing my little sister. Are you the ocean or the pond? ( I wan't to be somewhere in between )
on Feb 17, 2006
Good to see you again, Trin...nice write.
on Feb 17, 2006
Beautiful, Trinitie. Powerful. I don't know what else to say.
on Feb 17, 2006

Wow, guys.  I'm overwhelmed.  You know what's funny, though?  All I can think about, because of my stupid human mind, is why no one enjoyed my other recent articles.  ....I'm such a loser.

Shovelheat said: 

I am as impressed as I am envious

InBloom said: 

My b/f told me to take a look at this article...he says it impressed and made him envious at the same time...

So, for a sec, I thought you guys were together.  Then, I looked at Shovelheat's recent article and he says he has a wife.  So, coincidence?  Fill me in guys.

Funny thing, though, Shovelheat.  I thought you were a girl.  Hehehehehe...

 

on Feb 17, 2006

X-tine said: 

For one, love is a decision. For the other, it can't be helped

I'm sorry, man, but that made absolutely no sense, to me anyway...  If love were a decision, then it could be helped, right?  I'm going with the second theory.  It can't be helped.  You can't decide who you want to love.

Charissa:  Girl, you know Ima be famous some day. 

reading this, i feel like someone rewound me back to the woman i was to become when i met my husband

Mignuna:  Will you explain that, please?  Btw, why would I care if you introduced a new reader to my blog?  That would please me .....

on Feb 17, 2006

Are you the ocean or the pond?

What do you think, Banana?

Good to see you again, Trin...nice write.

Tu eres mi heroe.

Gives this an A+! (and a cookie.)

LW, you know you my girl.  I love cookies.

HC, thank you.  That adjective, "powerful" is used in reference to me, my work, my name, my attitude, my life quite often.  I think it's the most flattering of them all.

Trinitie

on Feb 17, 2006
~~So, for a sec, I thought you guys were together. Then, I looked at Shovelheat's recent article and he says he has a wife. So, coincidence? Fill me in guys.~~

Actually, my sweetie's name is udigitthemost (he blogs on here sometimes). He read it, but didn't respond. He then suggested I read it since he thought it was so good. And I see that many people agree!
on Feb 17, 2006
You can't decide who you want to love.



Yes you can, to an extent. It's incredible to get to the point where you CAN open and close emotional doors. When you can choose to love a person. But, it's usually not until AFTER those things you've described. The bruised knees...the wounded heart.

on Feb 18, 2006

Maybe so, but I don't think I'd want to, Xtine. 

Trinitie